Monday, July 26, 2010

Four weeks away and as always missing You

   Hi Master!!! I cant believe it's already been four weeks that i have been away from You. That's just craziness to me that i have been away from You this long. It's hard to even think of being away from You this long, but i know it will be okay.
   I hope this week finds You doing well. I have a feeling that by now i have gotten a couple letters from You which should be helping out majorly. I still dont know if i will be able to talk to You on the phone or not every chance i get so the letters mean the world to me. It's also something that i can read over and over again to remind myself of just how much i love You and just how much im missed. I am not sure how much longer things are going to be, but the good news is that we're half way through the weeks that im going to be away from You for a little bit. I still half four more weeks left, but its closer to being back in Your arms.
   I know right now i'm missing Your smile and Your laugh and the way that You just hold me and make everything feel better. Being away from You for this long is so hard on me. I am ready to be back with You and to stay with You, but i have to be patient. Thats one thing i know i have learned from You is patience....even if You did have to hit it home to me ;)
   I hope Your job is going well and that You are keeping busy to pass the time. I know i'll be super busy so You not having to worry about me is a good thing. I am glad that You wont have to worry about whether or not i'm safe or anything like that. I will just keep remembering 4 more weeks til You get to see Your airman lil one. :) I love You so much and hope that You are missing me as much as i am missing You.
                                                                                                                                           love ya,
                                                                                                                                        <3 lil one <3

This poem is so i can let You know that i still remember my place even if i am a dominate society with the military. I love You so much and wouldnt change being Your lil one for all the money in the world. The poem reminds me that even though i may be intelligent and strong, i can still be submissive despite what other people may think that i need or will be a dominant figure. It also reminds me that i will always love You for what You give to me and what You bring out in me.

Submissive Woman
i am a submissive woman.
i am not weak, nor i am worthless.
i am a submissive woman.
i am intelligent, and possess a strength and perseverence that withstandsthe trials of life.
This strength which i possess and cherish is my gift to You.
When life breaks You down and makes You question the man you were intended to be...
allow me to allow You to suck my strength from me.
Make it Your own.
i do not nor will i ever give my submission to a man just because he claims dominance.
But to You, i give all of me...
and Your ownership completely sets me free.
i trust in You to cherish the gift,
embrace my trust in You...
to protect me.
i have opened up my heart and my mind...
the very core of my soul to You...and invited You in.
i have given You the book entitled "Me"...and invited You to read.
You know i have suffered and You know i am scared
but You...You have endeavored to erase the memories and replace the pain.
You are my Master and i am Your slave.
i am not to be degradednor ever dishonored
yeti recognize i am not Your equal,
nor will i ever be.
i was created to compliment You...
i was created to make You whole...
for without the portion of Your heart that contains my soul...
would not be complete...
****found on internet****

Friday, July 23, 2010

Just an update on lil one

To those of yall who are reading this I thank yall for supporting this blog and I know My lil one thanks everyone too! My lil one has been in Texas for almost four weeks now and I just wanted to let the people that read this blog to know that she is still doing okay. I am able to get phone messages every week but it just isnt the same as having her next to Me. I have been receiving letters from her but they are few and far between because they have to earn the right to send them off. It really has been a hard time to have her gone for this long. It feels like a part of My soul is halfway around the world and there is nothing I can do about it. Thank God for friends and family if it wasnt for them I probably would be going insane! There is some good news though...she is just about halfway done with BMT and then I will be able to fly and give her the biggest bear hug in the world! I am slowly counting down the days that pass by! When she finishes BMT she will be able to contact more often! I have told her about a million times and I will tell her a million times more that she is making Me soooooo proud! she says that she isnt doing her duty by being here taking care of Me but before I even made her Mine I knew that she would be going away to the best armed forces in the world. she knows that getting through the training will make Me proud and I know in the bottom of her heart that it is her main focus!! We are going to be looking for an apartment together NO MATTER where it is! I cant wait for her to be back into My arms and she knows good and damn well that she has a welcome home spanking waiting for her!!!

To My lil one: you will always be My kind of crazy and nothing will ever change that!! I love you more than words will be able to explain. Keep your head up and keep pushing through you can make it!!!!

                                                          LOVE YOU ALWAYS,
                                                                     Master R

Monday, July 19, 2010

Three weeks away from You now....

   Wow! Now its three weeks i have been away from Your smile and loving arms. I know this week will be hard as i'm sure i'm getting used to the crazy sleep schedule and everyday schedule that basic has now instilled in me. I'm hoping that by now i have heard Your voice because i can only imagine it being harder not being able to hear it.
   I cant even fathom being away from You for three weeks when You read this. I know by now i will be missing You like crazy, wishing i was still by Your side being Your lil one. You dont know (although i have an idea You do know) just how much i love You. There are no words to describe just how much i love You. You have taken me and made me Yours mind, body, and soul.
   I cant believe it's been three weeks and there is only five weeks left until i get to see You again. I know that if i'm allowed to, because im not totally sure on what i will and wont be allowed to do after graduation, i'll be running into those arms of Yours and jumping in them. If i cant run and jump, i know for sure i'll be giving You the biggest hug ever. I just know right now, i'm probably just now used to the schedule they have us on, but looking forward to pushing on through basic to graduation. It puts me that much closer to my job training and being back in Your arms again.
   I hope that You are staying busy and doing things to keep You distracted. I hate the idea of being so far away from You because i cant take care of my Master. It's a big dilemma for me and to me right now, i feel like i'm not doing my duty. However, i know You will disagree with that because You knew i was leaving for the military when we first started talking. I guess all i can do is push on and hope to make You proud in all that i do. My happy thought is the countdown has begun for me seeing You again. I hope You still think of me and remember me. I love You so much!!
                                                                                                                                           Love ya,
                                                                                                                                        <3 lil one <3

                                                                "I Love You"
                                            For all the times You brighten up my day,
                                            For understanding what i'm trying to say,
                                            For Your reassurance that it will be OK,
                                            For all of these things, i love You.

                                            For Your advice when i dont know what to do,
                                            For Your beautiful soul which comes shining through,
                                            For being there each and every time i need You,
                                            For all of these things, i love You.

                                            For Your part in helping me to grow,
                                            For the things about me that only You know,
                                            For cheering me up when i'm feeling low,
                                            For all of these things, i love You.

                                            For showing me what love is all about,
                                            For being so special, both inside and out,
                                            For letting me rant and moan and shout,
                                            For all of these things, i love You.
                                                   (i claim no ownership of this....found it online)

Monday, July 12, 2010

Now two weeks away from You.....

   Wow! I hope this second week finds You doing well with me being gone. I cant believe that when You'll be reading this it will already have been a week since i left You. It will also have been three months now for us. Wow, it's just crazy how fast time flies by.
    I know that this week is going to be my hardest yet. Last week was more about the in processing and giving us all our stuff. It's hard to believe there is only 7 weeks left, but i know i can make it through it all. You have taught me i can. You have always believed in me and when i doubted myself, You gently reassured me that i could do it because You believed i could. I know i will have times where i doubt myself and even though You wont be there to voice it, i know i will be reminding myself that You believe in me and that i can do it.
    I wonder if You have gotten that second job You were talking about. I know and hope that whatever You do it keeps You busy and makes time fly by. I know time will be flying by for me as i face nights of little sleep and TIs screaming in my face. I shiver at this thought now, but when You're reading this i know it will be my reality. Although i must admit that my one thought is no matter how bad it gets with the TIs, nothing can compare to what i have learned with You. The only thing i'll have to make sure is i dont laugh in the TIs face and just think of You being them to make it through.
    You light up my life and make all my stresses worthwhile. I know that with You by my side i can make it through these next few weeks. My one happy thought i know i will focus on is always doing my best to make you proud and also (i guess its two happy thoughts and not just one) to make it through to graduation day to hear You whisper in my ear "Congratulations lil one". I know i want to make you proud and that will always be my goal. I cant wait to finish all this schooling to get right back to Your arms. Missing You a lot right now...
                                                                                                                                            Love ya,
                                                                                                                                           <3 lil one <3

                                                         " I Am Yours"
                                              I know I am Yours in the morning,
                                             when I wake with Your arm over me,
                                             when You tell me "good morning little one",
                                             when Your face is the first thing I see.

                                              I know I am Yours at night-time,
                                             when I kneel by the side of the bed,
                                             when You tie my wrists to the bed-post,
                                             when "i am Yours" is the last thing said.

                                             I know I am Yours when You teach me,
                                             when You patiently guide and explain,
                                             when i look at the charms I have earnt,
                                             when You help me to try once again.

                                             I know I am Yours when i serve You,
                                             when i kneel by Your side as You eat,
                                             when i fetch You a drink or the paper,
                                             when i wait by the front door to greet.

                                            I know I am Yours in Your pleasure,
                                            when You look at me with such pride,
                                            when we talk about my achievements,
                                            when You want me right by Your side.

                                           I know I am Yours in punishment,
                                           when i have failed to do a task right,
                                           when You tell me where i went wrong,
                                           when You send me out of Your sight.

                                           I know I am Yours in my thoughts,
                                          when You are on my mind all day,
                                          when i think up new ways to please You,
                                          when i imagine what You will say.

                                          I know I am Yours in my heart,
                                         when Your voice makes my knees go weak,
                                         when i crave Your touch so strongly,
                                         when Your presence is the thing i seek.

                                         I know I am Yours forever,
                                        until the very end of my days,
                                         i belong to You, my Master,
                                         i am Yours--always and all ways.
                                                 (i claim no ownership to this....found it online)

Thursday, July 8, 2010

A song that explains the way I live!!

Our houses are protected by the good Lord and a gun
And you might meet 'em both if you show up here not welcome son
Our necks are burnt, our roads are dirt and our trucks ain't clean
The dogs run lose, we smoke, we chew and fry everything
Out here, way out here

We won't take a dime if we ain't earned it
When it comes to weight brother we pull our own
If it's our backwoods way of livin' you're concerned with
You can leave us alone
We're about John Wayne, Johnny Cash and John Deere
Way out here

We got a fightin' side a mile wide but we pray for peace
'Cause it's mostly us that end up servin' overseas
If it was up to me I'd love to see this country run
Like it used to be, oughta be, just like it's done
Out here, way out here

We won't take a dime if we ain't earned it
When it comes to weight brother we pull our own
If it's our backwoods way of livin' you're concerned with
You can leave us alone
We're about John Wayne, Johnny Cash and John Deere
Way out here

We won't take a dime if we ain't earned it
When it comes to weight brother we pull our own
If it's our backwoods way of livin' you're concerned with
You can leave us alone
We're about John Wayne, Johnny Cash and John Deere
Way out here, way out here

Our houses are protected by the good Lord and a gun
And you might meet 'em both if you show up here not welcome son

Monday, July 5, 2010

It's my first week away from You...

   Hey babe! I figured You would need this after i left as much as i know i will need your letters to help me. I cant believe its already been almost two months now that we've been together!! It's amazing and time has just flown by. I love you so much and i find these feelings grow every day more and more.
   Wow, i cant believe i'm going to be away from you for 21 weeks. Well, almost 22 weeks. I know its going to be hard for me to be away from you, but its for the best. I hate that its for so long, but i know You will be thinking of me. I know You will not have all the distractions i will, but i hope this eases things somewhat knowing You have something from me every week to make time fly. I know that it will be easier to make time fly with seeing You after 8 1/2 weeks, but its going to be the longest 8 1/2 weeks of my life. I only hope to make You proud so that You can see me graduate and wearing those nice blues uniform. :)
    You are so amazing to me and i love spending every minute with You. I may get in trouble and upset You, but i know no matter what You still love me and I'll always be Your lil one. :) You have been so patient and understanding that i'm still amazed by it. With You my future seems so bright! You truly are amazing and light up my world! I hope You know that no matter how busy i get while im away from You, You will always be on my mind. Everything i do will always be done to the best of my ability because i know You would want that. I know that is what will push me to make it through the first part of my time away from You. Just know i'll always be thinking of You and imagining Your face every night before i go to sleep.
    I hope my letters help You make it through the weeks while i'm away. I hope my journey into the Air Force is one that will make You proud and im glad i'll have You by my side as i make that journey. I cant wait to see You again....until then You'll be in my thoughts.
                                                                                                                                             Love you,
                                                                                                                                            <3 lil one <3

Oh another thought...well not a thought but there will be an added bonus to the weekly messages You'll get. I only hope it will help to let You know just how much i love You and miss You. I'll be thinking about You every night!

                                                  "One Wish"
                             If I could have just one wish,
                             I would wish to wake up everyday
                             to the sound of your breath on my neck,
                             the warmth of your lips on my cheek,
                            the touch of your fingers on my skin,
                            and the feel of your heart beating with mine...
                            Knowing that I could never find that feeling
                            with anyone other than you.
                                          ~by: Courtney Kuchta~ (found online---doesnt belong to me)