Wow, today couldnt get any better then what it has been in my opinion. The funny thing is that we didnt do anything, but it's still amazing that today was better then i ever thought possible.
The day started after the two of us woke up. A 3 1/2 hour car ride one way to the recruiter can be a little exhausting with the heat that has been hitting the area lately. I think it was about low 90s yesterday while we were traveling, which was incredibly hot to me. The weird thing was that we burned more gas driving down the road with the A/C on compared to riding down with the windows down. With the windows down, we barely burned any gas at all and made it all the way up to TN and made it to lunch with my mother and the visit to my recruiter and then back to our first stop area. It was weird because when we put the windows up for phone calls that we got while driving down the road, we watched the gas gauge slowly creep down. But after they were put back down, the gauge barely moved at all.
Visiting with the recruiter seemed to not really phase me at all yesterday. I found out some amazing news and some not so great news. The bad news was that for Christmas, I may not be able to make it home to celebrate Christmas with Him at the actual time or not. I hate the thought that i might not be able to spend time with Him for the holidays when the holiday actually is. My happy thought is that at least i'll get to celebrate the holidays with Him some point around that time. The good news was that nothing was wrong and that i was eligible for recruiting assistance. This meant that if i dont get a base close to Him, i can work close to home and visit Him on weekends. :D This made my day. I'm not totally sure how things will work out, but i know that either way we will make things work.
Anyways back to the day..both of us were exhausted after not really sleeping at all last night. We both had bad dreams that it just seemed couldnt be real. My dream was horrible and His was equally horrible. He had dreamed that i had cheated on Him with my ex. I reassured Him telling Him that there was no way that would happen. He told me whatt all had happened and how He gave me a choice between me and the guy (who happened to be my ex) and I told Him that i didnt know in the dream. To me this would NEVER EVER happen because i know that no matter what the choice will always be Him...there is just no choice for me ever. I love Him so much and He is my whole world. I know He is the one for me. He is the one to guide me and love me and comfort me when i need it. He is the only one that i ever wish to serve and will serve. I look forward to the future ahead and know i will be walking into it with my hand in His.
Well today we lounged around and i took care of getting my student loan information together. My recruiter waits until the week before i'm supposed to leave to tell me that i have to get him the promissory notes together and then when i finally message them to him, he tells me that he needs to know how much i have in loans. After that is where the bad news came. He told me that the military was only going to pay for one of the loans because there wasnt enough time to consolidate it. I couldnt believe it because this makes me mad. If i had been told from the get go that i had to consolidate them for them to be paid off, i would have. But oh well, enough complaining since i'm getting at least 5,500 out of debt with my student debts. i can at least be happy for that much.
I find myself not as nervous today as i think about the HUGE step in front of me. After His reassurances yesterday, i know now that i wont have any kind of problems. Well, i cant say i wont but i know that things will be a little bit easier knowing that He will be there no matter what and even if i dont make it all the way through, as long as i did my best He will be happy with me. I only hope that i make it through and dont get counted out because of a medical reason or some other reason. I have a strong will and strong support from Him and i know without a doubt that He will be there at my graduation come hell or high water. My parents i have no idea, especially with them decided to close on a house the day that i leave (which they chose the date not the bank for those who know how this process works).
Oh, the other good news was i talked to my sister yesterday. I'm so excited to be an aunt again and just cant wait for that baby to be here. I wont get to see the baby until a few weeks after it's born because she's not allowing anyone there for the first couple weeks so the two of them can have time with the baby. I understand this because when she had my niece, my mother took the baby from her and was doing things like the first bath and everything. I understand she was trying to help, but she should have let my sister do those things. So i totally understand where she's coming from. I am so proud of my sister and cant wait to see where her future goes.