Monday, October 11, 2010
A Curious Day....and building frustrations
So anyways, there is a good thing about being here because i am able to go out and look for things for Christmas for Him. Yesterday was an unplanned outing for me, but i knew that i needed to get off base and not just hide myself away for the three day weekend we were having. I went with a couple of my friends down to the mall and went exploring. Of course, i found an amazing store there that i never knew catered slightly to people in the lifestyle---Spencer's. I have never really explored in Spencer's because in the past my mother thought it a horrible place and refused to let me shop in there. Well needless to say, it was fun exploring the back corner of this shop. I also felt less embarrassed here as i would have been extremely embarrassed looking at what i was yesterday. I found things like tingle flavored gel for your clit and nipples or lockable wrist cuffs for the shower or even whips and body whipped cream. I have quite a few ideas and am wondering if i should have a budge instead of a limit of 3 lifestyle gifts because there are so many choices. I have so many ideas..... I almost got myself into trouble for what i was thinking for Him, but i will know for sure what im getting by the time it comes to getting them before i leave.
I can say that i am His already and have been since the day we met. To me, it was like i had known Him my entire life after the first few seconds of talking with Him. He didnt have to lure me in or anything. He was just himself and i was myself for Him. He sees this lil one as a girl who is sexy and just amazing to Him even when i dont feel that way. I always feel sexy when i am with Him because He could care less about the other girls around that are hotter because i am the one coming home with Him. I am the one that He gets to take home at the end of the night and love and be His lil one. I hope He knows that ill always love Him unconditionally no matter what factors pop up in my life. He has been there and i still love His control of my life, even if it is from a distance for right now. He controls me in every essence, because even if He may not be able to see what is going on, He knows what goes on in my life. He can tell when im lying and when im not.
I wonder what tomorrow holds and what troubles i may get into. Who knows... :D it seems im always getting into some kind of trouble.. :D