Sunday, October 24, 2010
A Present for Master
So one of the many things i find myself battling is the whole wingman concept taught here. Yes, it is an amazing concept and i applaud the idea because it is something that helps prevent bad situations from arising. However, there are downfalls to it as well. Being constantly around a wingman there is no privacy whatsoever. Beyond having no privacy and everyone knowing every little thing going on within the group, there is also the dilemma of always having to be a good wingman, but it puts you at a disadvantage. The other night i made Master upset and mad at me because i told Him i would be back in the dorm at 9 and have my journal done and ready. i wasnt back at the dorm until almost 930 and turned the journal in then. i was trying to be a good wingman and take a couple of my wingman to a friends car, but at the same time it was at a cost to my time with Him and what i had to do for Him. This situation is one i face daily. im taught here to always be a good wingman and help people out, but at the same time i also cant keep helping everyone out and have no time for me or the things that i must get done for Master.
Anyways....earlier today i was asked to take my head rope to the commissary to buy some charcoal. It was for the team picnic and there was nobody else here to take him, i took him there. It was him and a couple other guys tagging along, but it was to get stuff for our team picnic. I was thanked for helping them out and i was glad i could help.
The team picnic went amazingly well and i found that there is a new song that is in my head. It is so true of the situation that me and Master are going through. Nobody else, not even those in the lifestyle, know what we have gone through or will go through in the future. Each relationship is different and unique in its own way.
He is my Master and my love and yes we will have struggles and downfalls, but at the same time we will push through them just like we have with me being here in the military away from Him.
"And no one knows why im into You,
'Cause you'll never know what its like to walk in our shoes,
And no one knows the things we've been through.."
I left it and then went to hang out with a friend at her dorm. This was where the day turned amazing and kind of crazy. Going through a box of things that the girl living in her room before left, we found pictures and random things. In the bottom of the box, i continued to be nosy while she went and did her laundry. Pulling out something huge that was bubble wrapped a lot, i realized it was a tv. We pulled it out and i couldnt believe the luck. i had found a tv in her room, but to no luck we didnt find a power cord. This is where the situation gets tricky. After realizing there was no power cord, she decided that she didnt really want it and it was just going to go back in the box. What good was a flat screen tv without a power cord?
Anyways, after thinking about it i sent Master a text and told Him what we found and took a picture and then we got to talking about the cords. This friend knows about my relationship with Master and that i am in the lifestyle. She heard us talking about getting a power cord and all and was joking around and laughing. i told Him i wasnt sure id get it, but she had already decided she didnt want it at this point. So i got off the phone with Him after getting the okay to look for the power cord. This friend joked with me about didnt i want the printer instead of the tv, which i replied no i didnt. This statement to me lets me know that she clearly knew i was claiming the tv and if i could find a cord for it, i was going to keep it and she had already given up her claim to it.