Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Thinking on myself...
Reading a fellow blogger's writing, i have come to realize that maybe there are things that Master doesnt know about me. Well i can say that maybe He knows, but i havent verbally come out and said it to Him. The two of us are embracing a new thing called complete and open honesty. In the past when Master asked me a question, i would give Him a half hearted answer or just kind of blow Him off. It wasnt meant to come off like i was avoiding the question, but to me now it kind of was like i was avoiding it. So i agree to be completely honest with Master. When He asks what is wrong or what i said, i will tell Him no matter what it means or what it is. So maybe this might take a step in the right direction. Anyways, back to the blog. He was talking about different things submissives want but are afraid to ask for. This is where i get to be completely open and honest with Master. Taking straight from the blog, i feel i should let Him know a few of the things that i crave and wish for but dont have the courage to ask because of the always having to be the good girl, but secretly wanting to be a naughty girl.
little girl to everyone, but a naughty little one that deserves to be punished and fucked like the bad girl she is too.
also lets a little bit of the good girl side in me come out too.
with my head. Naturally im not sure what all this entails, but i know that He wouldnt let me wander too far from Him. He would take good care of me.
Throughout everything that i have been through, Master has constantly been there by my side to reassure me that everything will be alright and that He has things under control. There is a constant worry sometimes that all this will get to Him and make Him wonder if things are really going to be okay, but i havent sensed anything like that yet.