Monday, October 15, 2012

Crazy Hectic Life

    Wow, i cant believe it's been a good bit since i last posted on here. It seems that just when things start settling down, life likes to start getting hectic yet again. Master and i are both doing very well, but it seems that i have to figure out how to settle back down again.
    Lately Master and i have been dealing with things from my work that have left me super stressed and worried and almost to the point of a mental break down. It takes a lot for me to get to the point of wanting to hurt someone(NEVER my daughter or Master) because they have pushed me to the point of breaking at work. People i was working with got hungry so i asked to do a food run for them and i got told no. Someone else asked someone who works for those over me and they got told yes, so i assumed it was okay. However it wasnt...i ended up getting in trouble and got some paperwork for it. It was an all around bad night that night because then i got chewed out for saying i didnt feel good to my supervisor's supervisor. He wasnt very happy about it at all:( and i was on the tail end of his anger.
     These past few weeks i have had a lot to deal with concerning work. Adding into that, Master and i got sick :( then our little one got sick so we had to deal with her being sick. It is a lot to deal with and i feel that i have struggled a lot with making sure they're okay while also working and keeping up with school and just trying to play mom. Honestly, i feel that i have sucked at being supermom lately with everything.
     Master and i are doing better and school has somewhat leveled out for now, but i still feel that i am failing to be the perfect sub and wife and mother that im supposed to be. MAster may not think so, but i feel so. When i clean, instead of things being cleaned as we go it seems that i have to clean in mass like every 2-3 weeks. It's crazy how backed up things can get and i feel so let down. Hopefully, i can get to a point where there is happy harmoney. Until then...any suggestions out there from fellow subs/slaves that can help me not feel like such a horrible sub and keep up with everything. There just seems to be no way to keep up with working at nights 13 hr shifts, sleeping for about 5 hrs, and taking care of a baby, eating, and taking care of Master.

1 comment:

  1. I am sorry you have too much to deal with. I have no real suggestion on how to keep track with everything because to me (if you are not wonder woman) you have way too much work. Most people need to sleep more than five hours and they need some time to rest during the waking time too.

    You don't have to feel like a horrible sub, you are doing what you can in a difficult situation. As a submissive one usually wants to do all the housework and serve one's Master in every way.

    I have an illness which sometimes make me ill for long periods. Then I can't do those things and it feels horrible! What kind of slave am I if he has to make the dinner and clean the house? It is a very difficult situation.

    I hope you and your Master soon find a way to ease you work burden!

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